Another year has passed me by…
Feb 22nd, 2010
Since I’ve last posted, I have composed two more great songs called “Heartbeat” and “Regret”, tracks you can find in the download section and in the player. Also, I would like to add that I will be throwing a birthday party in Club Brain on the 6th of March to celebrate another wasted year of my life, with DJ’s from Bucharest and Iasi and with music ranging from dubstep and d’n'b to darkcore and industrial. You can find the poster for this event here. Enjoy the tracks and I’ll be expecting you at the party. Thanks!
Artificial Pain
Jan 8th, 2010
Sometimes I think that people who are either too happy or too bored have a tendency to create their own imaginary problems so that they have a reason to complain or to feel useful. Think about it…
Industrial Revolution - part two
Dec 7th, 2009
The Industrial Revolution was a period from the 18th to the 19th century where major changes in agriculture, manufacturing, mining, and transport had a profound effect on the socioeconomic and cultural conditions starting in the United Kingdom, then subsequently spreading throughout Europe, North America, and eventually the world. The onset of the Industrial Revolution marked a major turning point in human history; almost every aspect of daily life was eventually influenced in some way. [from wikipedia - the free encyclopedia]
May your dreams last longer than the night
Nov 29th, 2009
Never give up on your dreams, no matter how far-fetched they might seem. This is what I’ve learned these past few weeks and I think everyone should take this advice under consideration.
Anxiety
Nov 8th, 2009
Anxiety is a generalized mood condition that occurs without an identifiable triggering stimulus. As such, it is distinguished from fear, which occurs in the presence of an observed threat. Additionally, fear is related to the specific behaviors of escape and avoidance, whereas anxiety is the result of threats that are perceived to be uncontrollable or unavoidable. [I didn't feel like writing today so I just copied something from Wikipedia.]
Crystal Tears
Nov 1st, 2009
The tears dripping down her pale face, crystalline like the snow falling outside my window, they give me both pleasure and pain. Why? Because I’m bitter and cruel, my soul only a reflection of other people’s misery, and I feel like I was born only to trouble others, pick them up, put them down and drive them away.
But let’s not be vain, this is not about you or me, it’s about the collective disease that haunts us all: the absence of empathy between us and the lack of respect for each other. We are all guilty and we all have to pay somehow, starting with tears, remorse and regret for all the people we’ve hurt all this time, and we didn’t even know or care. Without empathy there can be no love and without respect there can be no dignity, only foolish pride and arrogance. To get to love and respect the other, you must first learn to defeat your precious ego and start hoping and dreaming again.
Innocence
Oct 9th, 2009
in-no-cence [in-uh-suhns] –noun
1. the quality or state of being innocent; freedom from sin or moral wrong.
2. freedom from legal or specific wrong; guiltlessness: The prisoner proved his innocence.
3. simplicity; absence of guile or cunning; naiveté.
4. lack of knowledge or understanding.
5. harmlessness; innocuousness.
Where is yours?
The Angel
Oct 3rd, 2009
She rises to the sky and she shines in the sunlight just so she can hit rock bottom over and over again. She helps me and she haunts me, my decaying angel, small and corrupted, tormenting my nights, sometimes keeping me awake, sometimes defiling my dreams, never saying what I want to hear and never giving me what I need. She’s my guardian and my obsession, but not mine to have.
A new beginning
Sep 24th, 2009
I have just finished the last track from the new album “Introspection I”, which I will officially release as soon as the mastering process and the covers are done. The track is called “A new beginning” and it tries to convey the simple sentiment that every ending is just an opportunity for a new start, the dawn of a new day.
The track is very short but pretty intense and optimistic, and my first new song after almost two months of inactivity and lack of inspiration. I would like to dedicate this song to a dear friend of mine who has helped me overcome the difficult moments of these recent months with her unwavering support and companionship.
I hope you enjoy the song and eagerly wait for the next one, which will come soon enough! Also, make sure you catch me at the Cybermental Electro-Industrial Festival on the 1st of October, in Silver Church Club in Bucharest. I’m sure you won’t be disappointed.
Less is more
Sep 18th, 2009
Sometimes we overlook the simple joys of life because we got used with too much complexity. For each and everyone of us there are specific simple things we enjoy and it’s not up to me to tell you what they are. Also, I’m not in the mood for sharing my feelings just right now, so you might as well just enjoy this remix of “Simple Things” and leave me alone.
Drowning in a sea of monotony
Jul 31st, 2009
I like drama. Drama is good for me. Makes me feel like I’m alive although I’m probably not. I mean, I am alive in the strictest sense of the word, but I don’t REALLY feel like I am. I’m just floating in a surrogate of life, slowly going mad, clinging to to what I believe is life: social norms, peer pressure, forced smiles, cheap conversation, bad humor and discussions about weather.
I talk a lot but I don’t really say anything because nobody ever listens anyway. Truly listens. It’s amazing how people really have nothing to say but they insist on saying it anyway. I like my sea of monotony, my lifelessness, because in this so-called life nothing we ever do really matters anyway. At least I’m being honest and not yearning for superficial things, hoping that they could somehow fill the void where once there was a spark of life.
I waited and hoped a long time for that perfect summer when I would have the spare time to do what I wanted, to have fun, eat, sleep, drink, smoke and love, be a kid again. It never came and it will never come. Not soon enough. I grew up…no…I grew old too fast. Old and tired. Fat, old and tired. Fat, old, tired and bored. Fat, old, tired and boring. All this time I waited and life just passed by me, giving me the finger instead of the thumbs-up.
My only hope is that one day I will find the proverbial fountain of youth, the tree of life where I can replenish some of my energy. I like drama. I love being pathetic. All I found is the “tree of boredom” and some god-damned mosquitos. Summer is all about mosquitos. And heat. And monotony. Everyone loves summer but no one really likes it. They just use it as an excuse to escape their pathetic lives. Escapism. That’s what’s it’s all about. Working a year for three weeks of company-approved escapism. Fuck you!
Regarding the matter of “hope”…
Jul 7th, 2009
…I have found nothing of use. Therefore, I decided that a little new age ambient will be more suitable to express my thoughts.
Total fucking madness
Jun 29th, 2009
Somewhere between darkness and light, the daughters of Nyx are waiting for you. The new song is called Mania and it’s probably one of my best. Enjoy!
Hope for a better tomorrow
Jun 23rd, 2009
Thinking about what I’m going to do with my life after all my academic struggles either fills me with hopes or with fears, depending on how I wake up. Right now, this is how I view hope, musically speaking. Perhaps later, I’ll do something about the fears too, we’ll see.
Sunburn in your brain
Jun 6th, 2009
So, I’m still alive and well after the Brain concert and the exam session, I guess I can call myself a graduate student, but hey, who’s counting. My latest track is called Sunburn and it’s designed right before the last exam, so it has the angst, anger and all the bells and whistles needed to get your adrenaline pumping. Enjoy it!
More new tracks!
May 22nd, 2009
I know I haven’t been very active lately, that’s because school’s tough on me and philosophy is not quite as easy as it might seem to you simple mortals. But I didn’t rub the mint these past few months, on the contrary, I have composed three more new tracks that you should listen to if you don’t want me to summon Satan all over you hard drive (again). These three new tracks are called Poison’d, Symbiosis and Industrial Revolution (part one), and each one represents a different feeling and inspiration, therefore a different genre. So no complaining!
Poison’d is pure and simple industrial evil. By listening to this track you decline any and all responsability for you life, well-being or mental health. If you can see the pattern so far, for every two peaceful songs, I make an angry one. That’s because, in my life, one in three days sucks (in a bad way).
Symbiosis is, like I said, just a fancy name for a song you should get high on, right away. NOW!
Industrial Revolution - part one is my way of making history less boring. So bring up Wikipedia, turn up the music and start reading. Maybe you’ll get smarter. Or maybe not… Anyway, probably the first part of the trilogy, we shall see.
Live performance
May 22nd, 2009
Hello boys, girls and other wretched creatures! As you probably know (and if you don’t know, you probably won’t care) I’ll be performing live with Logical Elements, on the 29th of May in Club Brain. Join me there or don’t, it’s still quite the same to me. More details here.
Three new tracks!
Mar 28th, 2009
I have uploaded three new tracks that will be part of my new album, due in August. The first is Anemia, which, like December and December’s End, tries to tap into the infinite resources of anger from the collective consciousness, the hive mind that we all share. The song takes that rage, sickness and depression and turns it into a big-ass audio sledge hammer and then bashes your face in. Have a nice day!
The second track is named The Uncertainty Principle, and does not refer to Heisenberg or undead kitties, but to the relativistic way in which we should regard the world around us, especially the socio-economic phenomena.
The last track is pure fun and games, childish and innocent, like the past and our memories of it. It’s called Spring Break and it’s simple and shallow so shut the fuck up!
